Missing those long Gone...

Hello,

I am a guy who talks to himself,I am a guy who has his faults, I am a guy who has his fair share of good and bad days and yes I have some what of a dual personality, the exploration of which, I haven't done to the needed level. But all I see through my time on this earth is that there are moments of joy, moments of happiness, and moments of cheer. These moments even when they are less are the times we seek all through our lives. These moments might only be less than ten in a whole lifetime, if you are lucky as they are the moments of glory, the moments of pride for you and the people who care about you. These moments are like the other open end of the tunnel which shows the light for us to forget and cross over the sorrows and darkness of the present.

The journey to this light is the actual part, the part that matters, the part where you soak in all that you have learnt during the course of your journey and apply it with your purest will to go through time and taste happiness. These are the moments of realization, the moments of painful truth, the moments of introspection and the moments when we have fallen down and we need to get back up and face this world and it's mean people.

Now, all that stands between us and the light is time, and obviously the people around us. This so called concept of society works in weird ways, as it bases itself on the most unpredictable of all kinds; "Humans".

There are so many times in my life that I have met someone, became a good friend of them and thought that this friendship will last through the tides of time, but time and again I have been made to feel and notice the way humans behave, as for them, friendship is temporary, temporary to the time they Gain from it, to the time they need something, to the time they feel lonely, as the moment they actually move, change their lives and stop gaining from it, they leave and don't seem to care.

This so-called hypocrisy and selfishness that I have noticed has changed the way I see things in life. All those who I have lost through this time, I will always inside my heart keep urging them to come back. But I guess that wouldn't matter and neither me writing this, as in this world, what you do is more important than who you are doing it with. The society in its present state stands to lose the only charm it has, its 'Human Touch'. 

I do not want to be a successful person, but just a person who has people to talk to in his death bed, while he holds their hands and promises them smiles. I feel that the people around me have stopped being grateful to people around them, this is changing me too. But I refuse to bow down to this as I know and I believe that Happiness can only be found in the Love from people around you. 

So please go back and think who was special to you and you are not now in contact with and please find time from your busy lives to make them a significant part of your life. Time is ticking...

The New World

I dont know what awaits me on this paradigm shift that is about to take place in my life.
I am nervous, Yes, but more than that am scared by the swiftness of time that never seems to stop. It never halts and lets me breathe in air and life into myself.

People tell me the move I am about to make is a right move, then why do I feel blank at the thought of changing the place I have been living in for a very long time. From Bangalore to Mumbai, from one big city to another, with this I am going to have to leave behind the friends that i made, the faces that are not strangers to me anymore.

Wit hthis I am also loosing the memories, the smiles and the tears that this city and its people gave me. Having loved every bit of it, I seem to have no complains as to how this place treated me. What I think incessantly in my mind is, having come through all of this, what does my future entail. Is Mumbai a good choice?...

I sit here on this table for some of the very last times and really want to know how it all turns out to be. But I guess there is no other way of knowing that than to walk the mile and take the risk.

I know there will be new people and new surroundings, and all I have is a Smile.
Let us see how far this takes me!!! 

That Spark of Motivation

In this world today, what is needed of us is to seek a way to go on forever, go on in terms of our efforts, our zeal and our Motivation. A person has to have that single streamed focus and attention in life to attain what he wishes for, but what is really asked for in a person seeking his goals is the unending source of motivation that could lead him to what he desires to be.

People say that they are motivated, motivated to score good grades, motivated to prove something to others, motivated to get past a specific obstacle, but have they or rather have you ever noticed that these reasons for motivation are so specific that you loose on the events about to take place in the near future because your well of motivation dries out. In order for a person to be successful, he need an unending source of motivation, something that has no reason, something so pure that he needs no invitation to give out his best potential.

This is why if you really want to go on with life in a way where you walk on paths made by you yourself, do things the best way that noone has ever done before, you need to find infinte motivation.

This can only happen when:

YOU ARE MOTIVATED ON LIFE!

Yes, be motivated on life, be enthusiastic in everything in this world, there should be no particular source of motivation, just an unending source of this world, where if you see everything as a source of motivation, you will bloom like the most beautiful flower.

A general postive perspective about life and a grateful nature for everything that you own and do will be sufficient to make a source. this is when you not only work for a particular task but work towards every element of your life and thus gain what you desire.

So thus,

"Gain the light of motivation from every element of this world to bloom the best."

Nothingness In Success

I stand on a mountain, a moutain so high,

If i even jump a little, I'll touch the sky.

When I See around, I feel there is a void

So dark and gloomy, this sadness I wish to avoid.

I feel I have no friends, lost them all,

Climbed over their heads to reach the top of the knoll.

Having reached here, I sense nothingness

I feel I  made the wrong calls to reach till Success.

For this was not what I seek

Noone to share my feeling of being on that peak.

I stand alone on this peak today.

Noone to support if I went astray.

I think what I did was shamefully wrong,

Unable to keep up, my soul isn't that strong.

Never paid heed to all this at all,
But now I know where I had my most terrible fall.

God! Please forgive me, let me go back in time,

And change what I did, my biggest ever crime.

I need them all, all my friends back,

Else I see the things to come,gloomy and stark black.

I wander in wilderness to search for that smile,

One enabling me to go more than a mile.

Those get-togethers and parties, that time wouldn't come.

Those strings of guitar, the beat of the drum.

That golden era, my beautiful past,

I didn't know for how much time it would last.

Slowly, this emptiness,cripples my heart,

And has managed to chew away the happiness of my part.

I image myself like I am in the midst of an ocean,

Getting struck by a storm, drowning portion by portion,

Stranded in between, my boat beginning to sink,

Only salt water, not a drop to drink.

I fear the fact that when I go down from this hill.

I'd be meeting these friends downhill,

How will i react? What will they say?

Chances of even having a word seem to be grey.

Oh Divine power! help me with your might,

Please listen to this silly and over-ambitious person's plight.

Show me a way, Way to clean up this mess,

Help me to withstand this, let my emotions suppress.

I need to be where I was sometime ago,

No matter if this Success i have to forego.