The New World

I dont know what awaits me on this paradigm shift that is about to take place in my life.
I am nervous, Yes, but more than that am scared by the swiftness of time that never seems to stop. It never halts and lets me breathe in air and life into myself.

People tell me the move I am about to make is a right move, then why do I feel blank at the thought of changing the place I have been living in for a very long time. From Bangalore to Mumbai, from one big city to another, with this I am going to have to leave behind the friends that i made, the faces that are not strangers to me anymore.

Wit hthis I am also loosing the memories, the smiles and the tears that this city and its people gave me. Having loved every bit of it, I seem to have no complains as to how this place treated me. What I think incessantly in my mind is, having come through all of this, what does my future entail. Is Mumbai a good choice?...

I sit here on this table for some of the very last times and really want to know how it all turns out to be. But I guess there is no other way of knowing that than to walk the mile and take the risk.

I know there will be new people and new surroundings, and all I have is a Smile.
Let us see how far this takes me!!! 

Journey Ahead

It is only when one has something to think upon, some thought to nurture and some new seeds of ideas to be sown will he ever notice the beauty of life and how it tends to touch lives with the most unnoticable things and indications.
In a book I read, these were called omens, omens which when you interpret correctly makes you a part of the soul of this world. I do not know whether the reality is different or just the same, but still, I feel that there is a force that gives you the right signals, that gives you the ways that makes you understand the true and real essence of things.

Today as I came from a rigorous work out in the gym, as I walked about a mile towards my home with songs playing in my ears. I felt a sudden sense of lack of urgency, as if my feet refused to walk and refused to listen to my mind. It was as if the heart spoke so strongly, the mind gave up.

It was then that I noticed the Life in Life, every step that one takes is that journey from the present to one's dream and every step, every second and every moment of life leads you to where you ought to be, to where you were destined to be, to where your soul lies at peace.

This moment of thought making was paused and hindered by a sudden wind that blew past me, I came back to life, but yet I saw things differently, every leaf of every tree wanted to say something to me and while my confused brain was thinking how to explain this phenomenon, a vehicle flew right across me and it broke my thought. I was glad though as the thought had been sown.

I came back home, I churned my brain and said to myself, that only when I love and derive meanning out of everything I know, only when I dream, and only when I try, will life ever reward me with happiness. More importantly, I know well now that this happiness is nothing compared to the joy of living and making your own choices.
Because every step I take brings me closer to the soul of the world and my destiny.
It is there that I need to go but the next step is what I have to take as God will test me in all ways, good and bad. It is me, who needs to start loving the hard and the bitter as there is where the fruit lies.
So that is where I need to go!

I Reap what I had Sown

I stare for long at this table in front of me, it feels as if it stares right back, with all the poised beauty it hides within and all the silent screams. All that is obvious is percieved but all that is not, hides like this, as it wants itself to be inferred, to be known, and to be expressed.

I see this table and I sense the time stopping and fading in front of me, as if all this world is crumbling around me and the only thing staying as it was, is this table. I sense stability, I sense steadiness and i sense things to be stopping as they were.

And it is at this moment i ask myself, Why cant time stop in reality like this? Why cant all that I have is all that I ever get?  I stay here, in this present moment, or as people like to call it, NOW!!!
As I think over this, I see all the people that I loved, and how each of them seem to fade away with time, they were like a rivulet I never could stop as the only thing that happenned is me being far away from most of them. I feel a chill down my spine, I feel it with the thought of losing all that I have now. Change is Inevitable and there are better things to come, but what if someone doesnt like change, even though he pretends he does.

I find stability in this volatility of Life. Yes this is to people who are close to me now, it pains me when you go far away, but even when I know you cant stay for long, do remember to be there coz i assure you I will be.

I smile now with the thought of all the smiles I have lived, and all the times I have spent with all these beautiful people, and Yes, I am satisfied. I leave college soon, I leave many of my friends soon, and I feel empty inside, probably thats why I find meaning in a table just sitting there soullessly.

With the paradigm shift that awaits me, I just hope I dont lose all that I have gained and all these memories I cherish dont burn away with time.

I love you life, and I love all the people that God has blessed me with.
Probably now is the time I stop aimlessly staring at that table.