That Light really shined on me

Departed my soul, into another realm

Seeking to be discovered

I seek some light, I seek enlightment

In darkness my souls is covered

 

I know my power resides in light,

That light she took away from me.

I know she is gone, I know she is lost

Yet my eyes wish only her to see.

 

I wither like a plucked rose,

Like a drying fruit fallen under its tree,

Like a broken glass, it shattered me,

All I am left with is debris.

 

I see, I feel, It’s not like I’m dead,

Just a lot closer to being paralysed.

I think I am moving on in my mind,

But my soul rejects the plea to move.

 

Was this why I chose to write this now,

A final verdict to the lost cause,

Or I still see that light, too distant though,

I seek to mend paths, only because…

Random Ramble

SO there is a lot to write and a lot to tell, some past months have been interesting for me. So much has happened and so much is happening that the pace of the whole things is unimaginable. I seek to know a lot of what I never should have known earlier. I go from a phase where I have begun to love my most dreaded fears, which is nice, considering my past, that is definitely progress.

Also I have been thinking about this, I never purely ramble on this blog, it is always properly planned written text assorted and played out to you in a manner acceptable to most. So here it is, me rambling.....No edits, just me talking basically to myself. Interesting fact: we normally talk to ourselves in our minds and it is so nice when you can write the same shit...uhhh sorry.... things down.

I have been confused lately about my direction, lot of things on my mind and they all seem to be rolling on pretty well, but still I am going through a saddening phase for no reason altogether. It new to me as of now, but lets just say that is exactly the reason I am confused. I do not know How to solve something when I don't see a problem. Maybe I am thinking too much. People have said it to me a lot of times That I think a lot. Maybe I am this time too.

Also it is so interesting that my typing speed has gone up a lot so if anyone wants me to do some assignment for them, they are welcome.:P I can practically write at the same speed I am thinking :)

So I shifted to a new place today, all squeaky clean, nicely painted but not yet cleaned up. its a nice place in the same place. as in another room from the one I was staying in earlier, The fan is FAST....something that we would definitely need in Mumbai...IT IS SO HOTTTTT!!!

Well I guess I am hungry a bit, so probably will go and check out some kela Shop. as in Bananas....:)
Hoping to see you back Lappy, sitting here as stagnant and lifeless as you can be....:)

P.S. Lappy...you are growing old, time is coming near to replace you...:)

 

Blank

That moment in time, where you have so much to think and dwell on that you end up being blank, confused and dis-illusioned. So many thoughts go through your mind, trying to find a solution, trying to pave a way or find one already made. In despair you think of times to come to be gloomy, as you do not know how they are going to turn out to be. You aim for a better tomorrow but you end up spoiling the broth of these problems by adding too many solutions and as a result give out an aura of negativity. A person close to me had told me that at such times, he just closes his eyes and sleeps. Going into the dreamworld makes him get away from all of them. But that is only until he wakes up again, because when he does, he will see all of them sitting patiently beside his pillow waiting for him to get back up and he will have to face them at some point or the other.

We are prone to collecting problems and keeping them for solution later so as to have the present lesser burdening, but we fail to realise that this action of our s will only be a problem for our future as the problems will not just disappear into thin air and vanish, they will stick until they can get an amicable solution to them from you.

What is advisable therefore, is to stand up, face them and say this to them; "Your time is up". The moment we put ourselves to action, problems start to get solved one by one and we end up being far less burdened and far more satisfied as doing something to solve these problems give us a sense of fulfilment and achievement, thus filling our minds with greater confidence to take them head on in the coming future.

You might think that I am just blabbering here, but believe me, I rarely see someone fighting his problems out, mostly I see, sluggishness, laziness, and an incessant hope that all will get better with time. It will......But only when you act and apply yourself.

So Stand up, face your problems and Start Working.

"The Answer to all your problems has always been inside you, Seek it!"

 

The Sound of people laughing around me

The sound of people laughing around me as I sit in an arm chair, reminiscing the times I have had, the memories I have felt, the people I learnt from and moments when I was left alone, in this full, yet empty world.
I see around me and I see emotions, I see layers, and I see masks. People clad in clothes, more so clad in masks. I see some people smiling, on the surface as there hearts are void of love and hollow from within.
Why? I ask Myself?...Why is this world layered in masks of disguise, impossible to see through, impossible to lift the veil?...Why, when all we need is a smile, we seek other, more Material things? It feels as if today, we have closed our hearts and our souls. We closed our lives.

In thinking that we will be happy, we seek truth, we seek kindness, we seek someone who cares but all we actually see and get are people with selfish motives, with ideas of greed, of lust, and of lies. I am in pain in seeing this layer of emotions, which has no deep value construct.

And I see all others here laughing, laughing at others, laughing at people who have had lesser opportunities than them. I ask myself, what have those who are being mocked done to be treated this way. People elevate themselves to be superior just so that they make a divergent society built on the lines of anarchy, where only their ego prevails.
People through time have lost what separates us from other species, the Human touch. The way we take care of people and the way we feel noble constitutes that. But we choose to layer our lives, layered in treachery and our own selfishness. We are becoming what we aimed not to become.

In all these sounds that surround me, I feel alone, alone because I choose not to stoop to this level of inhuman behaviour. These people have made walls so high, that even if I want to reach out, these walls and masks keep me away and I can't. And I still see the people around me, Laughing...