This is that time of my life which is going very good for me, very beautifully and very peacefully. There are surely some hurdles that I have to pass through, but most of this leg of the race is filled with energy around me and more importantly inside me. I am starting to see myself differently than how I saw myself sometime from now in the past.
Respect, love and affection is surely something in abundance now, people who I love are too, but my dream, the dream of my life is surely changing, modifying and disappearing at a very fast pace. A pace I do not like.
My longer term goals are under great jeopardy right now as I am surfacing at the sea when the real place for me to be is the Depths of the ocean. I need to get back to where I was, even though a bit dejected, but doing what I can in time. This is one thing I should not lose, no one should. Life has been so much better for me since I made plans and tried to stick to them. That is life, and that is success when done over a period of time.
I know what I write right now may not be useful to the people who read this, but guess this is just my mood to talk about what I feel and not about how people should feel. I certainly have seen a lot of this world by now, of how situations unfold and how events occur in your life when you are least expecting them too.
I still say to myself that I do not deserve the success I have achieved till now, neither the applaud that comes along with it. I have been average all through, just with a zeal to learn new things and be good at them. Yes I am social, but that's all I am, I can make friends easily, but when it comes to sticking to them, I am not sure if I am good at that.
Life over a certain period of time becomes repetitive for me, unlike my opposites, for whom it is monotonous. Yes I meet new people and become close to them fast, but I like change, there is only a certain limit to which I connect to people, beyond that I am an introvert who likes to not go closer to people.
As of now, yes my life is going smoothly, I just pray it will in the future as well. As I have walked through this journey, that even if you want them to, very less people stay in your life permanently, the others are just a passing memory of a nice time that get imprinted in your mind.
Respect, love and affection is surely something in abundance now, people who I love are too, but my dream, the dream of my life is surely changing, modifying and disappearing at a very fast pace. A pace I do not like.
My longer term goals are under great jeopardy right now as I am surfacing at the sea when the real place for me to be is the Depths of the ocean. I need to get back to where I was, even though a bit dejected, but doing what I can in time. This is one thing I should not lose, no one should. Life has been so much better for me since I made plans and tried to stick to them. That is life, and that is success when done over a period of time.
I know what I write right now may not be useful to the people who read this, but guess this is just my mood to talk about what I feel and not about how people should feel. I certainly have seen a lot of this world by now, of how situations unfold and how events occur in your life when you are least expecting them too.
I still say to myself that I do not deserve the success I have achieved till now, neither the applaud that comes along with it. I have been average all through, just with a zeal to learn new things and be good at them. Yes I am social, but that's all I am, I can make friends easily, but when it comes to sticking to them, I am not sure if I am good at that.
Life over a certain period of time becomes repetitive for me, unlike my opposites, for whom it is monotonous. Yes I meet new people and become close to them fast, but I like change, there is only a certain limit to which I connect to people, beyond that I am an introvert who likes to not go closer to people.
As of now, yes my life is going smoothly, I just pray it will in the future as well. As I have walked through this journey, that even if you want them to, very less people stay in your life permanently, the others are just a passing memory of a nice time that get imprinted in your mind.
