Letting you Go!

I flow, so slow,
But I just don't know,
Where is it I want to go,
And I just let it flow.

Seeing all you smile through me,
And as I plan to take the pain inside me,
I see, All that I want to see,
But I plead, that once you come near to me.

Coz now, I see all that I should have seen,
Looking into the mirror
I don't see what I want to see,
Coz you have taken a part of me.

And I flow , So slow,
into the winter snow,
Trying to find you wherever I go,
While I know you are not here
But I just keep missing you so.

And now, the time is right when I let you go,
So many memories we made alone,
Our distance keeps me crying and moan.
But you were the most beautiful part of me,
All that I prayed I would ever see,
But the time is now and even when I cant see you leave.

I have to let you go,
All your memories I had sown,
Without you I will be more strong.

To see....See the beauty beside me...
Feel it, live it, As I do believe...
That Now I am Alone....
 

What makes me Content...

The day unfolds in front of me and I see the tiny particles of sand in the small beam of light that shines on my face from the window beside me, I see that day has started and that I need to start acting out my daily chores. But in this mundane and monotonous set of events that surround me, I see that I have been falling in love, not with a person, but with my energy. It gives me happiness beyond compare when I see myself rising back from the shackles of inner despair and instilling in myself the positivity with which I was once so full of. Maybe the bad tide has passed, maybe it hasn't but what I am sure of is that I have garnered enough belief to continue with whatever has been my aim and focus on things that I love even in the sight of danger.

I walk today not because I am being forced to in a certain direction but because I am loving the feel of the thorns piercing through my feet as I know what awaits me is far more precious than the pain that I taste at this hour.

Maybe I had become timid in the past as my dreams were not on their right course making me rethink on my dreams altogether. What I have understood now is that it never was about the dream, but the execution to it that will make the difference. No one was stopping me and no one is now, then my feet should automatically embrace what lies ahead and expect the worst out of the situation so that the least of happiness can make me glad and content.

Someone yesterday asked me how can I feel energetic and content at the same time, well, My energy is in me being content and the more that happens, the more I want to change the definition of what makes me feel content. As I see it, the end, that final goal that I will strive my whole life to get, is the final thing that can make me content. The final goal of Serving others. I seek all this energy not to bestow myself with cars and riches but to give others, the not so privileged a chance to stand beside me and compete with me and beat me, that would make me content, satisfied, as I will create opportunities that others could work on and live a much more happier life. All I need is that smile, the smile a young girl on the street has when you give her something to eat, the smile of the old uncle who you like listening to and the smile of all those people who you talk politely and with love to, that will be all I need to continue on this long and beautiful journey.

I believe the world can be such a better place if all we share were smile and all we cared about was the smile of others, the peace of others and the well being of those around us, as they are the source of our happiness and joy.

So yes, every step in this direction that I take brings me closer to God, more content and much more energetic as to the future that my life entails. Good tales cannot be written as well as they could be lived. So I take the example of Mother Teresa and think that if she could affect the community around her in such a soulful way, why can't I?

What am I to lose in this? I believe nothing. Then why not give it all that I have and sow this seed so that the shade of this tree can be used by generations to come, so that with their blessings and prayers, I might be remembered not for my riches but for my compassion.

Goa...A pilgrimage of Insanity!

My trip to Goa was certainly a roller coaster ride,
With organisers setting us rules we couldn't abide
And as we move into our futures, pretty bright,
We will keep these memories by our side.

I stepped into this, knowing that I wouldn't know many,
But with the train journey, coming close, I knew I had to try,
Coz there are only two options in everything,
To try your best or at your present state...cry.

To my amazement, I found people with souls,
With deep and complex personalities.
Trying to find solace in the Entertainability of Goa,
Some could sing, some could dance, some wrote notes, we all had our capabilities.

I love how I got so Comfy,
With faces so new to me,
I felt glad, rather enlightened,
For so much positivity I could see.

Those times of sailing through the air,
And dancing to each beat of the music,
Times when we lay effortlessly in the sea,
And times of incessant singing of melodies.

We did want to loosen up,
To break most of the rules,
In that we found unity,
Like our classes back in schools.

And when all of it had ended,
We had lived two pretty awesome days,
With our hearts young, and our souls alive,
We laughed, we cried, We lived in a million ways.

I refuse to write individually about these beautiful people,
Because what I saw in them could not be put here,
There was so much to learn and absorb,
I was amazed, it was clear.

The waves, the beach, the music, the songs,
The times of the cruise, the swimming pool part,
These memories of the cruise will always be cherished,
In smiles of purity, all evil had perished.

We live, We love, We move on,
I am lucky you are the beautiful souls I stumbled upon,
I do seek to relive this, and build what we have right now,
Hoping you remember this stupid bearded guy,
And thus I take my Bow...