To You!!!

It pains, I cry, I wreathe, but going through all this I learnt that sometimes you have to hurt yourself. The decision you have to take is not to solve the problem but to take the part which will hurt you less.
I sit here staring at my world, crashing and burning when I am supposed to focus my energy into something useful.

But today I am not writing to cry on the problems I have as it has been experienced by me that others are much worse. Today I write to just tell that person how special she is and will be.
What I did was because taking it further that way was out of my limits, but that doesnt mean she had anything bad....She remains an Angel, I will live with memories, I will grow from what I learnt, So I just have some things to say to her.

THANK YOU

MISS YOU

FAREWELL

I will always want to see you smile!!!

To CREATE is the solution

That spur of a moment when you envision a picture, a picture worth living, a picture saying so many things without the slightest of sound. You know, this where you stand right now is the line between reality and virtuality. Instead of swimming further into this sea of emotions you decide to make that image real, that beautiful, serene, inspirational image on a canvas.

This is when you draw, this is when you paint, this is when you CREATE!!!

You pick up ur brush, with the enthusiasm that fills you, and start to mix colours, you take some, you take some more, and you start to mix. The peace that you get out of just mixing colours, a very basic art, is the time you get to introspect not just about the image but also within yourself. Every cell of yours begins to find meaning in its existence, they come alive, you start to See rather than look, Listen rather than hear, you begin to grow, you begin to cure your inner self.

When you put the brush full of colours onto your canvas and make the first layer, you begin to realise that one can only find meaning in the small jobs they do, the bigger the job is, the lesser you learn.

When you paint, you see in front of you a canvas waiting to be designed and created by you into a image which pours out meaning.

Now comes the toughest part, the image that you made, that virtual image of your mind is now to be given existence, it's like giving life to the Dead. Slowly, stroke by stroke, you fill it with depth of colours, giving it the shine, the meaning and the essence it needs. Each brush stroke, each colour adds on another new horizon of thoughts in you, you begin to see your problems in a different way than usual. This is what painting does to you, it opens you up, gives you solutions by way of its colours seeping into the paper.(now not so white)

You now make your carefully thought out final strokes that actually give the picture its life. Thus, you end up portraying and image of your mind into the real world, which when done successfully is the best form of communication.

You keep your brush down with utter patience and care, you feel at ease, Calm, alive. Picking up the painting, you now actually co-relate the portrayal to the actual virtual image and you sense a belief growing in you, you Stop to think and notice that you could speak something which you care about, you could give life to your thoughts, you could give meaning to yourself, you could find peace, you could find Solutions.You could find Joy
This is what Painting does to you, it makes you come alive, It makes you CREATE!!!

At Peace

Somewhere I love being, somewhere I feel Safe, Somewhere i can be myself without having to think about how many hearts is break or how many people I have to make happy by being not true.
This is a place that makes me believe that trueness and richness comes from within and it can never come from the outer worldly Happiness.

This is where I belong, this is where I sing my Song.....
Away from sorrow, Far far away from this world.

Some stories are better left Untold...

Life sometimes bewilders me with it's turns, nooks and corners. I seem to not understand the course of it even though I actually try to. In times when I should be sad, in times when I should fall down and stay there in utter loneliness, God, my friend sends another guiding light.

I grow out of words when I see this light, my ability to articulate ceases. It has taught me so much in so less time. The subtlety in which it lets me know the truth of life is appallingly terrifying but yet satisfying.

When I look into it, it makes me happy and fill me with positivity. Yes I respect it, I love it, Yes I Like being with it. It breathes life into everything its around and gives that aura which makes you feel at your level best. I Love to Smile when it's beside me.

That smile, that care, that mystery, those values............

It's not with me but it still Is, and will forever be!!! 

I will keep this story with me always as some stories are better left untold....
I feel happy, Thank you God!!!

What India Really Needs...

65 years of we being free but the only thought that goes in our mind are whether we will go into another depression and India is going into a process of slow death. At this juncture I am well aware of the inflation, fiscal deficit, government, corruption and all the other issues that my fellow citizens point out in condescending the country. Come to look at it, the only thing that India lacks as a country is Indians.

I believe it is time that we take the onus on our shoulders to take India to the place it deserves.

"What is a country without it's citizens????"

Ask yourself, Can you definitively say that if India would be a mother, she would be proud to have you as her children. How much have we done towards solving problems of the country???
And....

"If we dont solve problems, who does???"

It is we who need to change our ways and ourselves for the better.
Just imagine, if we Indians stop spitting on the road and making it dirty or we Indians are taking bribes, it is not India who is at fault, it is US.

The culture is India shows a place where people clean their indivdual houses and then dont even care where the garbage goes. In this scenario, how can the country be clean.
We need to understand that if not in the past, this is the time when we stay in our country as A DIVERSE UNIFIED WHOLE, as it is only when India grows so rapidly that we should be oblidged to be with it in these times.

We say that India has a very low potential in terms of self made entreprenuers, but we have never considered the fact that that our intellect is being bought by richer countries and we are no more than highly paid servants there. On a personal note, I would never spit in the same plate I eat from.
And i Pray that there are many like me who intend to give back a beautiful country what it has given to each one of us.

"The problem is not out there, but within US"

INDIA NEEDS US, INDIA NEEDS ITS CHILDREN!!!

The Immediate Effect

I dive into my realm of thoughts and the image that comes out is this.

She is pretty, she listens.....but Alas she is an Image...!!!

That bit of silence

Clock ticks, the lights glow and all I listen to is my lonely breath and the sound of my fan. I look at the time,it's 4 in the morning, and I am blank, Blank like a slate.

On this canvas of my mind, I try to percieve things and draw a picture. I take in all elements of the self subsisting surroundings and make assumptions about the way my actions would be percieved by my fellow mates, base my actions as to how would they react, and on what would they be feeling about it.

I seem to not understand the validity of this socially accepted practice of presumptive and diplomatic behaviour which at most times even I am party to. Why would someone make a social construct where you have to suffocate your desire and succumb to the worldly pressures and ideas......
 .........Only because you want to be called as a part of a Society????

What kind society is it where people who think differently are asked to sit outside only because they can not think alike, only because they try to innovate and not replicate. The laziness that slurks on peoples shoulders is alarmingly disappointing to the people who try changing lives of others by impacting them positively.

Well certainly I myself am not positive today on the things passing in my life. I dont know why that happens when at this juncture I certainly dont have complains for anything. Maybe it's just the things around me exuding a sense of loser attitude that rubs a bit in me too. Now is there where I shamelessly continue or I give in.

Maybe it's just something that I have to deal with as it's very hard to change the world but at changing oneself, I believe we can do a pretty good job with that.

This silence is not the battle itself, but the battle against the battle to come.
The Clock still ticks, the lights still glow and the fan is still on..........with this I lean back and take a journey into finding the soothing voice in this shrill silence. The WAR is still on!!!

Do you Fear DEATH?

Sitting on this table, with a plain white screen, I sit with totally nothing in my Head. A blank face, a blank page and a blank mind all metaphorizing the emptiness that embodies me. I close my eyes into a stiff darkness with only the sound of a tap dripping small droplets of water and a fan spinning with a squeaking sound that gives a rather monotonic impression of my life which seems to sag on me as the seconds pass.

In this darkness and a closed environment I drop into a realm of thoughts a never ending labyrinth of ideas and unexplainable things and undefined theories. I stand clueless of the reason behind my presence here, seeking the deeper meaning of this.

Questions seem to hit me like a ray of Sun, soaking in me and changing the way I feel, changing the way i perceive and changing the way I see. I feel sick, sick from within. My cells seem to tell me something by getting heated up, my body scorches more than the scorching heat. It has been like this for a long time now, with people being unable to cure me, i seek within. I seek Answers. I seek the message beyond.

Why do we fear death? Why is it that we fear loss when we die but not when we live?

We live all our lives trying to put things in order, trying to fix mistakes that we have already done and trying to make friends when we all know that the second we die, all this would be of no relevance. We crawl back into the same place where we once came from, leaving behind all that we gained in the due course. What is left behind also is not our valued and possessed articles but our name.

The name that Symbolises the values we possess, the deeds we did and the paths we chose. Our friends will remember us for who we were and not what we were. Thus, I seem to fail to understand why we spend most part of our lives trying to shape "What we are" rather than "Who we are". This is what we need to inculcate in our lives, to shape our future in terms of our values and not on material terms, take decisions in line with our Charachter, thus leaving a mark in the world for the better. An effect on people's lives which makes their life happier and peaceful.

Why do you need to fear death if you have already done what you ought to. People on the other hand will only have fear when they run behind shaping their life on terms of assets and not on ethics.

Even if you start now you will be rewarded well for your efforts as even when you die, these will be the things that you will be remembered with. So.....

"You decide whether you would want to shape your future by focussing on your present or fear your future by misusing your present."

Dream Out Loud

YES I dream, rather I would say, I dare to Dream. I dare to dream that one day, I will be learning in the best classroom of this world, in Harvard Business School. One Day I will be surrounded by people who aspire to be something , something that changes others life for the better, a change worth noting. It will be these only who see the world as a happier place while they strive towards a better future. One day I will wake up the same way they do and learn about the world, from the world in the best way possible, by Empathy.

There is no Success or Failure in my dream, just the will to succeed, the power to put in the efforts needed and the enthusiasm needed to win in any situation in life that I face, to thus make this world a better place to live in, a place full of Love for mankind and for mother nature.

This person, Ruskin Felix Barar, will one day sit in front of those interviewers, and keep in front of them everything that he has acquired throughout his life and everything he learnt. In that 30 min., he will try to be the truest and the best person he was designed as, by God.

"I Dream Because I BELIEVE"

I believe not in my destiny but I believe in my own self to carve my destiny in a way that leaves a benchmark. I will pave my way, a way remembered by all, not because of it's glory but because of my courage to get back up and put in my best even after the worst of failures. Maybe that's why i am intrigued by the courage and mental strength of the Spartans in "300 The Movie".

 

One should Dream and one should be unrealistic in their dreams. You may think I am wrong for I dont favour logic and rational but just think about it, when you set limits for yourself, you end up tying loose ends instead of making a new thread.

A wise Guy once Said; "Being realistic is the most commonly travelled path to Mediocrity."

 

Whereas when you dream like you should, you challenge your limits, you try to go beyond what you thought you could do, only then is a slight chance of you beating your own expectations. A situation where you surpassing others is irrelevant, what matters is whether you surpass yourself. Being practical and realistic does nothing except putting you into a 4 by 4 cell, bars of which you'll never be able to bend.

"Life is not about trying to be different but it is about making others feel that they can be different, they can be Better"

We have to try our level best to inspire as many individuals as possible as that is how the world would never see the darkness. We as citizens of Mankind should find within ourselves, "What is it that makes ur Thrive?"; as we find reasons to this we will see our halo lighting up. But this will only happen when you dream and then put yourself together every time you fall down to finally live that dream even if it's in a different world. Just the Zeal to get it should make you cross the toughest of hurdles.

"Develop your Mind to be the best of what you can"

You have to realise that;

"You are what you make yourself into."

Always remember these valued words of the Great Confucious;

"He who says he CAN and He who says he CAN'T, are both ALWAYS Right"

That Spark of Motivation

In this world today, what is needed of us is to seek a way to go on forever, go on in terms of our efforts, our zeal and our Motivation. A person has to have that single streamed focus and attention in life to attain what he wishes for, but what is really asked for in a person seeking his goals is the unending source of motivation that could lead him to what he desires to be.

People say that they are motivated, motivated to score good grades, motivated to prove something to others, motivated to get past a specific obstacle, but have they or rather have you ever noticed that these reasons for motivation are so specific that you loose on the events about to take place in the near future because your well of motivation dries out. In order for a person to be successful, he need an unending source of motivation, something that has no reason, something so pure that he needs no invitation to give out his best potential.

This is why if you really want to go on with life in a way where you walk on paths made by you yourself, do things the best way that noone has ever done before, you need to find infinte motivation.

This can only happen when:

YOU ARE MOTIVATED ON LIFE!

Yes, be motivated on life, be enthusiastic in everything in this world, there should be no particular source of motivation, just an unending source of this world, where if you see everything as a source of motivation, you will bloom like the most beautiful flower.

A general postive perspective about life and a grateful nature for everything that you own and do will be sufficient to make a source. this is when you not only work for a particular task but work towards every element of your life and thus gain what you desire.

So thus,

"Gain the light of motivation from every element of this world to bloom the best."

God v/s Religion

Religion, this is something that the world takes so seriously, but I don't. Not because I am an Athiest but because religion is Manmade and not something foreordained by God himself. I love God and I believe in his existence but I do not understand that when God remains the same, why do we need to name him differently just for the sake of certain sects of society.

"I believe in God, not in Jesus or Ram."

On a more factual basis, I will strengthen my idea on God by saying, "Is there any place in the bible where it is said that GOD is saying something in First Person????......"NO", the whole Bible is in Third person. This means Bible is just a narrative and not "The words of God himself"

By this, I do not mean that we stop believing in these texts, these texts were written only to do this, "For us to Believe", but then why were they written then, are these stories real and true????

In my humble opinion, these stories are a proof of how humans are.

Humans have always been physical and materialistic in their mindsets, they could never believe completely something which they could not see, also relating to why we have such a Science influenced world now. Understanding this, our ancestors, who wrote these texts knew that if they relate values to stories and give them a physical form, it would be easier for generations to come to relate to them and learn from them.

What is God?

Well before explaining that, just take into account this; "Have you ever thought why these religious texts are similar in values but different in content?

It is because as it is said, God resides in everyone, (God in this sense are values, values of character and morals) , what they, our ancestors did was simply to have written down these values in form of stories to pass to progenies and thus be a point of contact for morals in the future.

Just imagine, only then it is posssible that all of them have different stories but the same values in them, no two persons can write the same story on a given moral, they will be different.

So finally,

"God is a certain set or pooling of ideal qualities that each person should possess in order for him to be the best of what he can be"

This brings us to another part of my theory, "Can we write a religious text?"

Yes we can, because every human has the same values and morals in life, it is only his choice what stories he designs to pass it on to the future. When we remember God,we see a particular image in our minds for him. But why can we not see him in a gangster dress and still show the same qualities.

We CAN, it is only a matter of time when that image be then in the minds of it's followers!!!

You might be thinking by now that if we all have the same qualities and values, why are there terrorists and crooked people in this world. it is because God gave us these values but also gave us the power to choose whether or not to follow them. This power of Choice brings us a balance of Good and bad in this world.

Then what happens to the prophets and messengers of God, they were only people who showed a true image of a how a person with these qualities would be like, they were the ideals in terms of that generation so there importance and existence was also very essential, as there life can be taken as an example by everyone.

Therefore, the texts that these religions so gladly depend on are just visual portayal of idealistic character for us to learn from and Grow.By my ideas, I do not mean to hurt the feelings of others but just to putforth something that I beliove in.

"God doesn't want religions, he just needs Love, Love among US"

Mysteries Of The Sky

Today when I stand still and see the blue sky,
I feel there is something more to it than what meets the eye.

Treasures unravelled, a mystery to our mind,

Kept in it's depths, very hard to find.

When a normal eye sees it,

We see the Sun shedding bright light,

We see some clouds, sometimes grey,

We see them slowly going away.

But there is a message the divine wants us to see,

A theory, a philosphy, an advice for free.

That there is really someone, someone up there,

Someone divine, whose always aware.

Someone very bright, as bright as the light,

When trying to see it our eyes shut tight.

This divine figure is just like the Sun

Being there always readily for everyone.

As the cobwebs of time gather around,

People die without making a sound,

Slowly and steadily the time marches ahead,

Without a doubt and without any dread.

This fearless time resembles the winds,

Dauntless, unstoppable whose journey never ends.

Like a frictionless tyre it keeps rolling

Never waits, never stops. never seen complaining.

The clouds that we see in this shimmering sky

Some grey, some white, some even cry.

Pearls of water come down on earth,

Spreading happiness, invaluable it's worth.

With the passage of time, humans also flee

To lands unknown, for us a mystery.

Noone's alike, have less things in common,

This is why a cloud personifies a human.

God measures each with the same stick

No averages, no probability, just a good old trick

He just presents a test to each person

One who fails, his life's will surely worsen.

This looks just like the blue layer on sky,

Covering everything from the horizon to zenith up high.

He tests you when you're most prepared

In Sheets of problems, these tests are layered.

Each answer of life is embedded in this sky

You just have to seek it by opening your eye.

Even if you fail, never fail to try,

Open up your eyes as wide as the Sky.

Nothingness In Success

I stand on a mountain, a moutain so high,

If i even jump a little, I'll touch the sky.

When I See around, I feel there is a void

So dark and gloomy, this sadness I wish to avoid.

I feel I have no friends, lost them all,

Climbed over their heads to reach the top of the knoll.

Having reached here, I sense nothingness

I feel I  made the wrong calls to reach till Success.

For this was not what I seek

Noone to share my feeling of being on that peak.

I stand alone on this peak today.

Noone to support if I went astray.

I think what I did was shamefully wrong,

Unable to keep up, my soul isn't that strong.

Never paid heed to all this at all,
But now I know where I had my most terrible fall.

God! Please forgive me, let me go back in time,

And change what I did, my biggest ever crime.

I need them all, all my friends back,

Else I see the things to come,gloomy and stark black.

I wander in wilderness to search for that smile,

One enabling me to go more than a mile.

Those get-togethers and parties, that time wouldn't come.

Those strings of guitar, the beat of the drum.

That golden era, my beautiful past,

I didn't know for how much time it would last.

Slowly, this emptiness,cripples my heart,

And has managed to chew away the happiness of my part.

I image myself like I am in the midst of an ocean,

Getting struck by a storm, drowning portion by portion,

Stranded in between, my boat beginning to sink,

Only salt water, not a drop to drink.

I fear the fact that when I go down from this hill.

I'd be meeting these friends downhill,

How will i react? What will they say?

Chances of even having a word seem to be grey.

Oh Divine power! help me with your might,

Please listen to this silly and over-ambitious person's plight.

Show me a way, Way to clean up this mess,

Help me to withstand this, let my emotions suppress.

I need to be where I was sometime ago,

No matter if this Success i have to forego.  

Only the Child can SEE!!!

A lot of times have I seen people saying amongst each other;" Grow Up"

Well I have a different notion towards these words, different from what the world takes them as. When you really come to think of it metaphorically, who has a better chance of falling to the ground, a person with a short height or a person really "Grown Up". The Second one obviously, because scientifically speaking a taller person has a much higher centre of gravity than the shorter one.

This is the point I want to make, in trying to "Grow up", a person loses his foundation, the very foundation of honesty and Positivity, he starts to see a world full of trauma and grief. This is because he loses his roots, roots that could make a person Pure. Roots which make him a CHILD.

"Only a Child can see the real World, We live in Fiction"

By this I am not against People being mature, being mature is sought after as a quality in every human, but a more deeper sense of practicality.

"Is Being practical as important as your values, or is it even more?"

This is the bigger question that we need to address. The values that a child has is something that has to be copied, only then we can be a grown up who is ethical , following what he belives in and flourished in this world.

Deep routed to his values, he has to be a child from the soul and a rational mind from the outer shell. The combination of these would be a lethal combination, lethal enough to take the world by surprise. A combination of empathy, affection and honesty with Self Awareness, rational and determination, symbolising a coconut, the hard shell and soft core suits us human the best, we better start following it before Apocalypse!!!

The Key to Lead

People say 'Lead the way', I would say "Pave Your Own Way".
Why???
People theses days tend to be comfortable with twisting and turning through nooks and corners of life to live a Peaceful(Unmotivated) Life, only if they could realize that the moment they stood up for something they believed in, something that drives them and decided to pave the steps through which they will walk, will be the time for their Success to come to their feet and ask for homage.

Is it Easy????
NO, it never will be. Easy is everything if you want to pave your own way and nothing if u want to be more of a couch potato.

"It never comes to you, You yourself have to go and TAKE it."

Stop living on other's successes, stop crying on your failures, Stand up and fight for yourself, for your glory and Believe in yourself. You do not need to tread on paths paved by others as they maybe right then but through extensive use, those footsteps are long gone, what is left of it is just dirth and loose sand,Nothing else!!!

The Road to Success is not far away if you have the zeal to run more than a mile, run till you flourish, run till you become a legend.

THAT IS WHEN YOU WILL GROW.....With ZEAL, DETERMINATION, and MOTIVATION 

THE HORIZON AWAITS YOU, BUILD YOUR OWN DESTINY!!!!