Nothingness In Success

I stand on a mountain, a moutain so high,

If i even jump a little, I'll touch the sky.

When I See around, I feel there is a void

So dark and gloomy, this sadness I wish to avoid.

I feel I have no friends, lost them all,

Climbed over their heads to reach the top of the knoll.

Having reached here, I sense nothingness

I feel I  made the wrong calls to reach till Success.

For this was not what I seek

Noone to share my feeling of being on that peak.

I stand alone on this peak today.

Noone to support if I went astray.

I think what I did was shamefully wrong,

Unable to keep up, my soul isn't that strong.

Never paid heed to all this at all,
But now I know where I had my most terrible fall.

God! Please forgive me, let me go back in time,

And change what I did, my biggest ever crime.

I need them all, all my friends back,

Else I see the things to come,gloomy and stark black.

I wander in wilderness to search for that smile,

One enabling me to go more than a mile.

Those get-togethers and parties, that time wouldn't come.

Those strings of guitar, the beat of the drum.

That golden era, my beautiful past,

I didn't know for how much time it would last.

Slowly, this emptiness,cripples my heart,

And has managed to chew away the happiness of my part.

I image myself like I am in the midst of an ocean,

Getting struck by a storm, drowning portion by portion,

Stranded in between, my boat beginning to sink,

Only salt water, not a drop to drink.

I fear the fact that when I go down from this hill.

I'd be meeting these friends downhill,

How will i react? What will they say?

Chances of even having a word seem to be grey.

Oh Divine power! help me with your might,

Please listen to this silly and over-ambitious person's plight.

Show me a way, Way to clean up this mess,

Help me to withstand this, let my emotions suppress.

I need to be where I was sometime ago,

No matter if this Success i have to forego.